Hang in there..

I am currently working on my next blog post, so hang in there with me. I hope that it is something that everyone can enjoy, although it is rather opinionated I suppose. It's just something that appeals to me mostly, but has an underlying message that I'm sure everyone can at least relate to. I'm pretty excited.

Penny for your thoughts?

I am thinking… about several different things. I always have random thoughts crowding my mind. I’m thinking about my need to get an apartment close to work and school, my desire to change my clothes and take a shower that way I don’t smell like spoiled milk anymore, the fact that I don’t want to work until six this evening and miss out on playing tennis and walking through the park, and of course some other arbitrary bullshit.

I am thankful for… my life. I understand that my response is very broad… but it’s the truth. Most of the time, I complain about dumb nonsense and other shit, however for the most part I love the life I live. I have great friends and family that don’t always agree with my decisions but support them nonetheless and I respect that.

I am going… somewhere. Not exactly sure yet, but somewhere. I want to become something, be something, and in order to do so, I need to straighten up my life, change a few things, and work harder so I can do just that… go somewhere.

I am hoping… for the best. That’s all anyone can ever really do, right?

I am noticing that… my habits are still the same. Whether they are good or bad, they are still the same. Nothing has changed over the years… I am still the same person and always will be, so take me as I am.

We are surrounded by narcissistic individuals. Yeah, and you're considered one too.

Super natural powers are something that most people often wish they possessed. What if it was possible? What if you could experience a super natural power, such as being invisible, or having some kind of super vision that allowed you to see through objects, or even having the ability to fly? Bare with me for a moment now, what if it was possible… what would you choose, and why?

This is something that I have contemplated for a while now. Honestly, it wouldn’t matter what super natural power you choose. Whether it be the ability to see through objects and know what is in a drawer without opening it, or what was in the woman’s purse beside you, or being able to fly around town and not have to worry about traffic, or having the ability to be invisible and hide yourself from the world only when you want. These all sound great, huh? Thing is… if we could choose to have one or more of these super natural powers we would choose them for our own benefit, we wouldn’t choose them for the benefit of others or to assist other individuals… just ourselves. Now you can lie about it all you want and say that you would use your power for the better good of others, but let’s be honest here… you chose the power for a reason, a reason that appealed to YOUR better good. Truth is, as humans, we are selfish. We want what we want, plain and simple. And in the process of obtaining what we want, we don’t give a damn about others. Sad, I know. Someone had to say it though, even if it is expressed through a blog post.

Organize. Collaborate.

As a highly indecisive person, I have been making an abundance of decisions lately. I’ve been “figuring out”, so to say, some changes in my life… what they mean (if they even mean anything at all), how to absorb the information, taking the time to process my reaction, then... doing just that, reacting.

Through my reactions, I’ve noticed myself acting as a Knight, jumping over pawns to bypass certain situations, trying to take a lead in the game just to be taken back by a higher influence. I’ve been the bishop, restricted to moving in only one specific direction. Then there have been days that I feel I must move forward or else the past will haunt me, swallow me, forcing me to move back, again. Other days, I’m the Queen. I can move anywhere, I can do anything, and my opponent surrenders to my upper hand. But then again, we tend to get ahead of ourselves. What we don’t realize is that if we move like a pawn, one (at the most two) step(s) at a time, we’ll have the main component of everything at our summons. Check mate, and I win.