Here we go.. ready?
I don't do this too often anymore, and it's a shame. I think I filter myself more than I should at times. I'm never my true self around anyone, but you. And God, it's been way too long. At first, I was hesitant. I knew it was wrong, but something never felt so damn right. Is it true that two people can be connected as deep as the soul? When you move, I move. When you hurt, I'm in pain. When you're sad, I cry. When you inhale, I feel my lungs expand. I can't even fucking write this without feeling you in every word. You have everything I'm looking for, and everything I've found.. just wrong timing, I suppose.
Note from the Author:
I won't say this has been the hardest thing that I've had to do in the last year, but it's pretty close. Things like this don't come naturally for me anymore, and as time progresses it seems that I lose interest in what used to be the only thing that would bring me comfort. Although, I'm trying this out, giving it a shot, so give me a break. Honestly, I hope this means something different and personal for everyone that analyzes it. Basically, take what you will from it.
It is hard to tell if people can really be connected to some ones soul and if you can I don't think that kind of love is something you choose. Rather, it is the kind of electric chemistry that chooses you. It is that punch in the stomach, the weakening of the knees, the leap in your soul that uncontrollably happens even if you don't want it to. I've only felt it once. I spent the first half of my life running from it and now that I have excepted it, it consumes my life like a wild fire. But isn't that excactly what true love should feel like....Painful?
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